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Going forward,I’m

+Leaving new gay rags (hx, metrosource, next, blade and gay city news), Village Voice and l magazine issues outside the apartment. i’m welcomed to read them, yet keep them out of the immediate mix - and they are online anyhoo. perhaps a media dietary measure, you might say. the exception is providing immediate available copyfor appropriate visitors; new york spirit is OK to bring home because of its content, and is a quick read.

+Migrating fully from conventional tv viewing as Project Runway Season 3 finishes (two more to go! )
as roommate is buying a new flat screen, I will continue downloading from itunes, torrents, etc. to view such on my new mac, or wait it on dvds.

I am still surprised I’m blasé about The Amazing Race. Then again, I sorta felt that we might be done once they went wacky with the family season. Oh well, great while it lasted - and DVDs are likely to come.

+Reading new RSS blogs once! daily and non-RSS weekly

+Checking email accounts less often

+Spending my time consuming more quality/rich media & art. Imagine more DVDs per month will be screened (two a week would be great, based on netflix pricing - and that’s 100+ titles annually). Foresee increase in writing, composing, chart and astrological reading plus cooking, seeing arts beyond the apartment, and dating.

If I was waiting for a movement, or such, to be a part of, I believe it’s begun and is less “arts” and more vegie + media/marketing, especially talking to my new D.C. vegie pal.

The Dawghouse subtracts more than adds to my energies. +Handle your business here, mister!

Definitely is time to date.

I very well may switch seats at work with Sistah Step when Senior Team Lead is out next week. I shall be more prime time visible, and readied, though it may be part of my exit. As well, it just may be good to mix it up for me - definitely looking at change. Get Sistah Step to begin pushing it with our boss, if I’m for real, on Monday.

Unconcerned, and barely curious, with this item. Now it’s time for be to be especially present, and deep with the gifts there. Too, this is more or less worked out already - as it were, er, will be. Feel me y’all, this is fine as it will be.

Hmmm, perhaps this is why Beyonce’s Deja Vu and Christina’s NO OTHER MAN opening two lines grabbed my attention this week. Predestined? Hmmm, I dunno about that. I am feeling like some folks, things are just up the roads we on unless we change roads.

I’m seeing my midheaven as related to templating, a la recipes, songs, and other texts that easily loan themselves to use and adding a bit of one’s one interpretation/flavorings to them. i’m feeling like my mercury and ascendant somehow work together on concerns of archetypes - though perhaps i’m looking at the wrong chart relationship if i hear within correctly… that would push me to the venus, which seems more on point, yet uncertain base don my current astrological knowledge.

I definitely appreciate this idea of being an astrological advisor to some, in the nearer future (post Neptune-Sun conjunction, I believe). I feel like I have access to people’s ears individually whereby using my influence is a cool, great thing even.

Feeling like all these personal, and vegand, blog entries are pointing me to listening back on my recent two astrological readings. As well, I definitely feel, and know, it’s a great idea for me to raise my vibration.

I continue to feel like I will need to be more a monogamist with My Guy, and that this will be good, fine and healthy. And our detailed win-win agreement works. Too, I understood better today - hooray for listening! - this is about really connecting with my Other and allowing for the possibility that someone can really handle, keep up, and partner fully with me - all of that “too much” I often here. There is something, I sense, to be said for me focusing on Love, especially with my natal Pluto in Virgo! and the 5th house, and particularly with something so grand, someone so important, and, closer to what I’ve imagined, dreamed - natal neptune-jupiter-descendant, 7th house conjunction.

He’s likely a vegetarian, definitely pro-vegan. I foresee him as be(com)ing vegan. This seem important vibrationally to where I am (going) and such a union. <== DEALMAKER

He may not live permanently, or at all in the NYC(NJ) metro, thinking about the many foreigners/visitors I’ve met over the years, and the impulse on my “Next City”.

I know him when he’s in the room/near vicinity that first time. This is long-stated, yet seemed this week, moreso real, moreso available to me.

He is nearby, or was, earlier in the week - like so many miles, the metro I suppose. Or so was the feeling.

As an underlying thread here is dealmakers, I’m adding: he is mulitculturally savvy and aware, whatever his ethnic background(s).

Lately, I’d bet the most on a black haired gent.

I believe today, or this week, I clicked into understanding why I’m in NYC NOW. I know I certainly came to be challenged and access more on many fronts, to grow myself further career-wise, and to see first-hand what this “greatest city in the world” is all about. Find I must admit to being distracted by the cushy Dawghouse daygig. Um, is this making me softer and less sharp professionally - which is contrary to what I need, and seek? I believe so. As well, I find myself easily on the side of unhappy with them, rather than happy, overall.

Some of it, I attribute to living under some early designs I came here, to New York City, with. And now, I feel those designs require transcendence, as they limit me, and evidence a contrariness to my Neptune/Sun conjunction, where boundaries may be dissolved easily and long-term plans as for suckers. This is where the dreams can manifest, where the ghostly can travel without bounds, and so on.

As I know NYC is not forever for me, now is the time I say aloud. Too, this feels like the 2nd half of my NYC time since I returned from Goa & London. Manhattan feels very accessible, ripe, and more a big thang vs. a big overwhelming what have you. The world is here, in a sense, so I can be in one place (this fog, if you will) yet have it all nearby. When that clears, I do believe I will go about into the world a lot more creatively, romantically and so on. For now, being deeper here seems so smart and what I need to do in my best, highest good - that I simply must ‘get on the boat’

On the point of falling in love with NYC, or keeping this as my new home city: For me, it feels too taxing, or gruff, to be Home, or even Home-y, though perhaps it is homebase; I sense not between The Relationship and my Career as the U.S. West felt, and feels, more me. NYC was seen as a bridge to betterment for me, and a cool life experience period. Thanks Pete for calling this out at the beginning. This is where media - great media - is made many times, and I’m better fed multiculturalism. So let me Get It On
I realized this summer (?year) the notion of me as cocktailer, (house music) lounge goer or zipping and zoomiing about New York City - or any one metro - is a facet rather than the gem of me. My time is more about molting and emerging; it’s very little about networking a lot, high consumption of arts, or whatever.

A lurking question: skipping my 15th college reunion (next June)? Was miserable in being on the 10th reunion planning committee - partially because I wasn’t a primary (or solo) driver. And especially because we let many great ideas fade into nothing, or worse wasted work. Today, I feel OK about skipping it. Feels out of the groove I’m on now. Further, I sense it’s a good event, and OK to go, though far from paramount.

Reunion ‘07 (or the Family Reunion ‘06 going on right now) is a stretching me wide event, whereas my now is about getting in deeper qualitatively and/or quantitatively. This is related to aging, certainly, and my Neptune/Sun conjunction, probably more. That astrological aspect can be described as a semblance of fogginess for 2, 3 years I’m amidst now. During this aspect, it can be wise to keep the important things close by while other things float on. In other words, one could consider it like maintaining one’s course on the road in a heavy fog, or rainstorm, to be safest.