5,8 * I encourage others * Actor * Take 6’s “I L-O-V-E U” * moon Gem
dream about a small nuisance of a mouse and different ways to peacefully kill it. [MOVE! - which goes with what I've been thinking yet not moving much on.]
*The morning pages (a la Julia Cameron) are a great idea. They tend to go contrary to my AM energies
(+) revise eatsmart keeping in mind ‘”Potatoes, not Prozac” message of more protein to start the day AND less white foods. (Which actually is a quite amusing wordplay.)
Yes, i’ll have to see if I need to secure a new wedding outfit, and decide what that will be. (I’m OK on dress shoes, though tempted to Moo Shoes a new, more comfortable pair.)
Also, the money is better now; in part, because i believe I did some wrong math. AND I bought my OctFest ticket finally
* Will continue to watch for Denver deal. Thinking roadtrip(s) - one day preOctoberFest, could be outlet shopping with autumn leaves. (Sun 2 Oct?). And one in earlier November. Nothing definite, just plots.
I do believe I’ll just take a PDA phone with me on OctoberFest since email will be somewhat accessible at the various spots, and being more analog feels good. Of course, I’m subject to change my mind.
What about a digital camera? That really would be great. Then again, looking at ‘05 money-wise, could I do an indoor/outdoor camera, and get the images back on CD? Maybe even use camphone on Treo? The answer will come.
Carlos Castenada beckons - partially because i was being more logical, rigid in a dream last night vs. doing what would release me, and the magic within (the dream). Hmmm, very curious - I only sort of know what must be done consciously. From a trees PoV, I feel too much like a child (not even a teen, though things about this bedroom support that - boys on the wall, the desktop, the haphazard array of clips at work — i wonder how many think i’m nuts, and then i wonder if i could quantify how much i’m unconcerned (3%?)
I don’t necessarily want to return to this adult thing, in that, i believe we find it dry, and lemming to the music of a greater goods dealer, America, or Western civilization, or whatevah. Instead, the return is to a more loving, responsible way of being in this world, at least, for myself. Ironically, this personal month is a 6.6.5, I’m rather certain. Which could be translated as “Love’s form changes”. Hmmm, yes, yes it could.
McFerrin’s “Sweet in the Mornin’” played yesterday as I enetered the work building. I was quite happy to hear it come up. Reminded me, took me, to 1991 and putting this piece together for Ebony II (college dance group…) - I really took a lot of risks there, yet yielded some thing organic and more resonant with my person. In part, I need to return to that way of creating… ?workshopping scripts/narratives
And in part, I need to set myself up sooner than later, so I can choreograph as a hobby during down, or gestation times. Something to give to myself that I smartly share with others. So maybe I pay for it, and give free tickets to particular groups, schools, or what have you. With some tickets being for sale. If this group toured beyond our home stage, then we talk about money. Maybe it’s still expenses, and such? Well, people need compensation for their time. Hmmm, I need people who are creative to work with who can assist me in casting new models of arts that work in this capitalist game, yet don’t succumb to it and shine freshly (preferably Beyond It).
(Maybe this is Julia here, just faster so I can move at my own lightspeed - Gemini can go fast y’all, trust, it’s lightspeed - may be faster.)
A thought yesterday was I know there are ways beyond the known (now) for moving, transporting, and otherwise being with more of our brain + spirit powers. Ironically, I bet many tests are looking to lefty/logically at what the activity percentage is. Maybe I can grab some of those and go on my own way 
I’m not pressed about Marlowe tonight. In fact, I kinda want to hit the library for CDs, 2,3 books, and come home.
Another dream where SB & I catch each other on a street corner. She’s a bunch of shopping bags (gifts!). Is a bit off. (SB’s natal sun is conjunct my nadir/4th house cusp. I sort of feel like she’s not her, but that concept here.) Kinda put out/off with me that we aren’t communicating more - particularly in depth vs. frequency - [Perhaps symbol and person!]
I write here more, perhaps most, of myself as time and impulse allows, to easily search back for things as memory continues to amuse, shift, etc. Not that the word capture it in one ultimate Truth. Rather that they may trigger or reign in such distortions, or remixes, if you prefer.
I would like to take a laptop to Denver. As well, I want to find it able to pay for itself in terms of
*DJing station (likely need a bigger hard drive for Mac, would make smaller dual platform. Or if not dual platform then, would network drive to drive through Mac to PC, and transfer when/as needed…)
*astrology station
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dreamed of having a bunch of bags of clothes to give away [whoo, lots of prepositions!] (+) closet clearing time. Plus, I find the shirts/tops don’t match up with the pants from Express (which I still would like more of or similiar to, esp. in blues, blacks, greys. Green might be curious too.)
ok, so part of what’s been lurking (and waiting) this summer is a clothing shopping trip, spree even. Want to
(I like getting up doing some tasks, and lots of writing/thinking aLoud. It helps to see what new, fresh, determined, etc. items are in my head.
Right now, I’m not so worried about buying outstanding #1 CDs. Mainly because I know it will happen, and I trust for love to guide me in this pursuit.
The black Lama shoes look appealing c/o Moo Shoes (for wedding). I really like the idea of buy a pair a month for the year’s remainder. Definitely need to sharpen up and get into my be$t light/way.
Carlos is at work too, no fear. (Whereas this blog may not be immediately accessible.)